Life is a series of seasons.  One thing I love about the Word of God is that it is relevant in each and every one of those seasons.  I love that it is living and active! I love that what I read today, God will use to meet me where I am today.  He will use it to speak to me each and every time I come earnestly seeking Him, each time I come listening. Several nights ago, Psalm 37 was part of my daily Bible reading plan and my goodness, did it ever speak to me!  Ever since that night I have been goingRead More →

One night, while I was deep in a depression brought on by the turmoil in my life, God used a song to speak directly to me. Skillet's song "Stars" will forever be special to me because of that night. God reignited my hope in those moments, and reassured me of His love. #hisdearlyloveddaughter #skillet #panhead #stars

Do you ever come across a song that seems to have been written just for you?  Or, do you ever turn the radio on and feel like God orchestrated the song that was playing right at that moment so that He could speak directly to you?  Those are the moments when God feels so near, so personal, aren’t they? This happened most recently for me with Skillet’s song, Stars from their latest album, Unleashed.  The very first time I heard it I was right in the thick of those dark months I wrote about here where I was questioning God’s love for me.  It wasRead More →

Why I Want to Have Faith Like Joseph

  We’re working our way through a really great book in our family devotions.  It’s called The Story of the Bible, by Beverly Hubbard.  I highly recommend it.  Anyhow, tonight our reading covered the story of Joseph.  I’ve always been fascinated by Joseph’s story, but in recent years I feel like I’ve seen more and more each time I’ve read it that I just hadn’t ever noticed before. Isn’t that one of the most wonderful things about the Word of God?  It is alive!  I can spend the rest of my life reading the same stories over and over again and I will find somethingRead More →

The Next 90 Days

“Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the Lord will personally go ahead of you. He will be with you; he will neither fail you nor abandon you.” Deuteronomy 31:8 My heart is so heavy right now, and this is all I can do – trust that my God is going ahead of me and that He will be with me and that He will never fail me or abandon me.  It’s just about all I’ve got right now. The Council My love moved out tonight.  After the council we received last week we have decided together that a short separation is in order.  It’sRead More →

Well, here we are.  My love and I are home after our “intensive” week of counseling.  It was a very long, exhausting week, but we learned a lot about ourselves and our relationship.  I will share much more in the weeks to come.  We are still processing much of the information, and we’re still finalizing our “treatment plans.” There is one thing I would like to go ahead and talk about that I had to face about myself this week: I am a control freak y’all! The Delusion It’s not like that was a giant revelation.  Of course, I already knew I had control issues. Read More →

Does God Really Love Me? #HisDearlyLovedDaughter #Godslove #Depression #truth

I know it seems like a ridiculous question to many of you: “Does God really love me?”  You think, “of course he does, He died for you!”  I know.  I get it. But I have a feeling there are others (probably a lot of others) who totally get it.  I have a feeling there are quite a few of you out there who, like me, have wrestled with this question throughout your lives.  I’m not going to pretend the struggle has completely resolved. Likely, I will continue to fight those thoughts for as long as I live.  But over this past year God has revealedRead More →

Our Story Part 3 - Facing off with the Monster #hisdearlyloveddaughter His Dearly Loved Daughter #marriage marriage #sexualaddiction sexual addiction #ourstory #infidelity infidelity #beautyfromashes Beauty from Ashes

When I wrote this post, I was believing God that this wasn’t the end of our story.  I was hoping and praying that there were many more chapters to come – wonderful chapters.  But this was the chapter we were in when I started this blog in January of 2017.  It was a chapter that started a little over 3 years earlier.  It was a terrible, painful, life altering chapter.  But God is faithful.  In all of the mess that was this chapter, His love shone through.  His sustaining power could be seen everywhere.  My hope was that His redemptive power would prevail.  That itRead More →

Our Story Part 2 - The Slow Fade #hisdearlyloveddaughter His Dearly Loved Daughter #marriage marriage #sexualaddiction sexual addiction #ourstory #infidelity infidelity #beautyfromashes Beauty from Ashes

The slow fade is what I’m calling the part of our story in between the first five or six years of marriage and the years when we faced off with the monster that threatened to tear us apart.  These middle years were all over the place, filled with many highs and many lows.  It was during these years that I began to realize some of the realities of my love’s sexual addiction.  It was during these years that God began to teach me what unconditional love really looks like.  A Dream Dies There was no area in which that truth was more evident than inRead More →

Our Story #hisdearlyloveddaughter His Dearly Loved Daughter #marriage marriage #sexualaddiction sexual addiction #ourstory #infidelity infidelity #beautyfromashes Beauty from Ashes

We met when we were 16, became a couple within months of meeting and were completely enamored with each other in almost no time. We were young, but even then it was obvious to us and to most everyone who knew us that we were meant for each other.  There was just something about us that fit together like puzzle pieces.  We waited the years our parents made us wait and then we got married.  We were 20, we were broke, and we had no idea what the rest of our life was going to look like, but we knew we were going to faceRead More →

  Welcome to His Dearly Loved Daughter, I’m so glad you’re here!  I’d like to take this opportunity to tell you a few things about me.  My story is not unique. It is the story of countless women all over the world and throughout time. Perhaps it’s your story too.  I struggle to find my identity in a God who loves me passionately as I live my life loving a husband who has broken my heart over and over again in his battles to break free from sexual addiction. This particular story is so isolating. If it is your story too then we need eachRead More →