On February 6, 2017 I anxiously posted an announcement onto a social media page inviting the world to check out my blog. I was scared to death! I had registered my blog with WordPress on January 21st, just a few short weeks before. In those weeks I had been writing and learning like a whirlwind. The blog consisted of an “About Me” page, and a three-part series detailing “Our Story.”  I also had two additional posts mostly ready to go. Nonetheless, I had no idea what I was doing.  Little did I know what God had in store for the year to come! My life was in shambles, and in the midst of the chaos, God had whispered to me,Read More →

Our Story Part 4 - Something New #hisdearlyloveddaughter His Dearly Loved Daughter #marriage marriage #sexualaddiction sexual addiction #ourstory #infidelity infidelity #beautyfromashes Beauty from Ashes

I am so excited to be writing this post! When I started this blog almost one year ago, I had no idea where our story was headed. All I knew was that God was asking me to share it, so I did. I was scared to death. As 2016 ended and 2017 began, I was broken and hurting. I feared my marriage was over, that my husband was lost, and that I was worthless and disposable. I was the lowest I had ever been. It wasn’t much different for my love, or for our marriage. We were at our all-time low, and we had noRead More →

I told you back here how much my love has been growing spiritually and promised to talk more about it soon.  Today is the last day of our 90 day therapeutic separation so it seems like a great time to celebrate what God has been doing.  Our Bible reading plan through those first few months took us through Exodus, Leviticus, Numbers, and Deuteronomy.  (The story of Moses and the Israelites) If you’ve ever read them, you know that these books can become somewhat difficult to get through.  Once you get past the first half of Exodus there isn’t a whole lot of narrative, at leastRead More →

An Update to Our Story from the Past 45 Days “Afterward the disciples asked Jesus privately, ‘Why couldn’t we cast out that demon?‘ ‘You don’t have enough faith,’ Jesus told them. ‘I tell you the truth, if you had faith even as small as a mustard seed, you could say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it would move.  Nothing would be impossible.‘” – Matthew 17:19-21  Hopefully yesterday you read Part One of this story.  If not, you might want to take the time to stop and do that now.  Yesterday I told you what our plan has looked like for theRead More →

An Update to Our Story from the Past 45 Days Well, we’re halfway through the 90 day therapeutic separation.  I thought it would be a good idea to give a little update because God has been doing some big stuff!  We ended up changing a few of the parameters to the plan after about a week.  I’d like to explain those changes and then get to telling you about some of those big ole mountains God has been moving.  The thing is, I’ve tried and tried to condense this down to a reasonable length for a single post, and there’s just too much I wantRead More →

The Next 90 Days - Our Therapeutic Separation

  “Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the Lord will personally go ahead of you. He will be with you; he will neither fail you nor abandon you.” Deuteronomy 31:8 My heart is so heavy right now, and this is all I can do – trust that my God is going ahead of me and that He will be with me and that He will never fail me or abandon me.  It’s just about all I’ve got right now. The Council My love moved out tonight.  After the council we received last week we have decided together that a short separation is in order. Read More →

Our Story Part 3 - Facing off with the Monster #hisdearlyloveddaughter His Dearly Loved Daughter #marriage marriage #sexualaddiction sexual addiction #ourstory #infidelity infidelity #beautyfromashes Beauty from Ashes

When I wrote this post, I was believing God that this wasn’t the end of our story.  I was hoping and praying that there were many more chapters to come – wonderful chapters.  But this was the chapter we were in when I started this blog in January of 2017.  It was a chapter that started a little over 3 years earlier.  It was a terrible, painful, life altering chapter.  But God is faithful.  In all of the mess that was this chapter, His love shone through.  His sustaining power could be seen everywhere.  My hope was that His redemptive power would prevail.  That itRead More →

Our Story Part 2 - The Slow Fade #hisdearlyloveddaughter His Dearly Loved Daughter #marriage marriage #sexualaddiction sexual addiction #ourstory #infidelity infidelity #beautyfromashes Beauty from Ashes

The slow fade is what I’m calling the part of our story in between the first five or six years of marriage and the years when we faced off with the monster that threatened to tear us apart.  These middle years were all over the place, filled with many highs and many lows.  It was during these years that I began to realize some of the realities of my love’s sexual addiction.  It was during these years that God began to teach me what unconditional love really looks like.  A Dream Dies There was no area in which that truth was more evident than inRead More →

Our Story #hisdearlyloveddaughter His Dearly Loved Daughter #marriage marriage #sexualaddiction sexual addiction #ourstory #infidelity infidelity #beautyfromashes Beauty from Ashes

We met when we were 16, became a couple within months of meeting and were completely enamored with each other in almost no time. We were young, but even then it was obvious to us and to most everyone who knew us that we were meant for each other.  There was just something about us that fit together like puzzle pieces.  We waited the years our parents made us wait and then we got married.  We were 20, we were broke, and we had no idea what the rest of our life was going to look like, but we knew we were going to faceRead More →