I told you back here how much my love has been growing spiritually and promised to talk more about it soon.  Today is the last day of our 90 day therapeutic separation so it seems like a great time to celebrate what God has been doing.  Our Bible reading plan through those first few months took us through Exodus, Leviticus, Numbers, and Deuteronomy.  (The story of Moses and the Israelites) If you’ve ever read them, you know that these books can become somewhat difficult to get through.  Once you get past the first half of Exodus there isn’t a whole lot of narrative, at leastRead More →

An Update to Our Story from the Past 45 Days “Afterward the disciples asked Jesus privately, ‘Why couldn’t we cast out that demon?‘ ‘You don’t have enough faith,’ Jesus told them. ‘I tell you the truth, if you had faith even as small as a mustard seed, you could say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it would move.  Nothing would be impossible.‘” – Matthew 17:19-21  Hopefully yesterday you read Part One of this story.  If not, you might want to take the time to stop and do that now.  Yesterday I told you what our plan has looked like for theRead More →

An Update to Our Story from the Past 45 Days “So be truly glad. There is wonderful joy ahead, even though you must endure many trials for a little while.  These trials will show that your faith is genuine.  It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold – though your faith is far more precious than mere gold. ” – 1 Peter 1:6-7 Well, we’re halfway through the 90 day therapeutic separation.  I thought it would be a good idea to give a little update because God has been doing some big stuff!  We ended up changing a few of the parameters toRead More →

  “Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the Lord will personally go ahead of you. He will be with you; he will neither fail you nor abandon you.” Deuteronomy 31:8 My heart is so heavy right now, and this is all I can do – trust that my God is going ahead of me and that He will be with me and that He will never fail me or abandon me.  It’s just about all I’ve got right now. The Council My love moved out tonight.  After the council we received last week we have decided together that a short separation is in order. Read More →

I am believing God that this isn’t the end of our story.  I am hoping and praying that there are many more chapters to come – wonderful chapters.  But this is the chapter we’re in now.  It’s a chapter that started a little over 3 years ago.  It’s a terrible, painful, life altering chapter.  But God is faithful.  In all of the mess that is this chapter, His love shines through.  His sustaining power can be seen everywhere.  My hope is that His redemptive power is what will prevail.  That it will be the reason for all the chapters to come. The Big Compromise LikeRead More →

The slow fade is what I’m calling the part of our story in between the first five or six years of marriage and the time we’re still in now.  These years were all over the place, filled with many highs and many lows.  It was during these years that I began to realize some of the realities of my love’s sexual addiction.  It was during these years that God began to teach me what unconditional love really looks like.  A Dream Dies There was no area in which that truth was more evident than in our pursuit of that big family.  While the early yearsRead More →

Falling in Love We met when we were 16, became a couple within months of meeting and were completely enamored with each other in almost no time. We were young, but even then it was obvious to us and to most everyone who knew us that we were meant for each other.  There was just something about us that fit together like puzzle pieces.  We waited the years that our parents made us wait and then we got married.  We were 20, we were broke and we had no idea what the rest of our life was going to look like, but we knew weRead More →