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Do I want to Heal? Finding the courage to answer the hard questions

Do I Want to Heal? Finding the Courage to Answer the Hard Questions

Asking ourselves the hard questions is a difficult but important part of the healing process. Questions like do I want to heal, do I trust God, and am I willing to obey no matter what have to be addressed. But even more important is having the courage to dig deep and answer them honestly! Until we can be real with ourselves and with God, we’ll never find the tools to deal with the situation as it actually stands. We’ll waste our time working on issues that don’t address the heart of the matter. So let’s ask ourselves one of those hard questions today. Let’s look at the answers that often lie beneath the surface, and see if we can find some solutions in the pages of Scripture. Let’s step out in courage and choose to lay ourselves bare before the One who has the power to make us whole.

Hard Question #1 – Do I want to Heal? 

Do I want to heal? It seems like the answer would be obvious doesn’t it? Of course, we all want to heal! But sadly, the hard truth is, it’s often easier to stay the victim forever than it is to own our part of the problem and choose our own healing. Let’s look at how Jesus dealt with a man stuck in “victim mentality” for guidance and answers. 

John 5:1-15 – Afterward Jesus returned to Jerusalem for one of the Jewish holy days. Inside the city, near the Sheep Gate, was the pool of Bethesda, with five covered porches. Crowds of sick people – blind, lame, or paralyzed – lay on the porches. One of the men lying there had been sick for thirty-eight years. When Jesus saw him and knew he had been ill for a long time, He asked him, “Would you like to get well?”
“I can’t sir,” the sick man said, “for I have no one to put me in the pool when the water bubbles up. Someone else always gets there ahead of me.”
Jesus told him, “Stand up, pick up your mat, and walk!”
Instantly, the man was healed! He rolled up his sleeping mat and began walking! But this miracle happened on the Sabbath, so the Jewish leaders objected. They said to the man who was cured, “You can’t work on the Sabbath! The law doesn’t allow you to carry that sleeping mat!”
But he replied, “The man who healed me told me, ‘Pick up your mat and walk.’”
“Who said such a thing as that?” they demanded.
The man didn’t know, for Jesus had disappeared into the crowd. But afterward Jesus found him in the Temple and told him, “Now you are well; so stop sinning, or something even worse may happen to you.”  Then the man went and told the Jewish leaders that it was Jesus who had healed him. 

Can we see ourselves in this story? Do we get caught up in the same traps this man did? Have we spent our lives needlessly crippled when healing was as close as a few simple steps we just have never been willing to take? Would we rather remain dependent on others than own our problems and choose healing? Let’s examine some truths about victim mentality that become evident through this text and evaluate ourselves to answer the question: Do I want to heal?

Excuses are Easier 

Victims have an excuse for everything! There’s always a reason they can’t overcome their situation.  

It seems a little odd to me for Jesus to have asked the sick man if he wanted to be healed. The answer should have been an understood, “Yes, of course!” But Jesus could see his heart, and He wasn’t going to let this man get away from answering the hard question.

Surprisingly, his answer wasn’t yes at all. Instead, it was an excuse. As soon as the question was asked there was a reason he couldn’t get well. Right away, the answer was, “I can’t.”

The excuse was, “I have no one to put me in the pool when the water bubbles up. Someone else always gets there ahead of me.” Never mind the fact this man had been in this situation for thirty-eight years! He surely could have found a way into the pool in that time if he really wanted to. But, it would have taken vulnerability and hard work, and it was easier to make excuses and stay where he was! Even when Jesus stood before him asking, do you want to heal?

Are we any better? How often do we stand before the Great Physician, having been asked if we want to heal, with the answer, “I can’t”? How often do we offer pathetic excuses to the One who makes all things possible? How often do we claim to be stuck because we can’t support ourselves, or no one will help us, or someone might get mad, or a hundred other excuses that take the responsibility off our own shoulders? Why don’t we just answer yes? 

How often do we stand before the Great Physician, having been asked if we want to heal, with the answer, “I can’t”? How often do we offer pathetic excuses to the One who makes all things possible? Click To Tweet

Could it be the reason is: because we don’t actually want to heal? Perhaps, like this man, it’s easier for us to make excuses than it is to own our situations. To claim there’s no one to help us rather than admit we don’t want to be helped. Maybe it’s easier to look at others and point to their sins than it is to step out in obedience and do the hard work, making ourselves vulnerable in the process! 

The Blame Game Feels Safer 

Victims are never at fault. There’s always someone or something that forced them to make the choices they made.  

The sick man at the pool shifted blame more than once. First, he blamed his continued illness on the lack of help available. Then, after he’s healed, when the religious leaders ask him why he’s carrying his mat on the Sabbath, he blames the man who healed him. “The man who healed me told me, ‘Pick up your mat and walk.’” 

But it’s not that hard to understand why he did that, is it? It feels a lot safer to claim we had no choice, we were just doing what someone else made us do. It’s scary to admit we’re doing something because WE made the choice to do it. If we answer honestly, we might be forced to evaluate why we’re doing what we’re doing, but if we can just blame others we can hide behind their sin and never have to face our own. 

It’s so easy to miss this element of the story. Perhaps it seems like an unimportant detail, but I think it’s monumental because the next thing that happens is Jesus finds the man again and directly warns him, “stop sinning, or something even worse may happen to you.” 

Friends, this is certainly not clearly stated in the text, and you can take it or leave it, but I see enough evidence in the way these events unfolded to suggest the man’s sin was his victim mentality. I believe Jesus is saying to him, “Brother, you’re going to have to start owning your life and your decisions, or you’re going to find yourself right back where you were, only even more helpless than before. I have healed you. Now, stay healed!”

Change is Key, and Change is Hard 

Victims tend to lash out when confronted with their martyrdom. They don’t want to change, because change is hard, so they will do whatever is needed to discredit the source of the confrontation so they can justify remaining in their sin.  

Look at the man in this story. What did he do after Jesus confronted him and told him to stop sinning? He went and found the religious leaders and told them it was Jesus who had healed him. Why would he do that? He had already told them he didn’t know who had told him to carry his mat on a Sabbath. Why would he need to seek them out to tell them now?  

One possible reason is, he wanted to discredit Jesus’s confrontation and command to stop sinning by turning the religious leaders against Him. If what Jesus had done in healing him was deemed a “sin” by these authorities, then wouldn’t his command also be invalid? 

Once again, I’m admittedly making a presumption about this story (that you don’t have to accept or agree with) that steps beyond what Scripture has clearly told us. I’m using the text and applying what I know about human behavior. Because the fact is, just because Jesus offers healing, it doesn’t mean people are ready or willing to take it, and just because Jesus heals us, doesn’t mean we will choose to stay healed.

Proverbs 19:3 – People ruin their lives by their own foolishness and then are angry at the Lord. 

Regardless of what this man did, we have to ask ourselves: are we willing to change our behavior in order to accept the healing Jesus offers? Are we willing to let go of our victim status in order to become an overcomer? Are we willing to stop looking for the sympathy of others by insisting our situation is impossible and start owning our ability to stop sinning and be healed? 

Do we want to heal? 

Are we willing to change our behavior in order to accept the healing Jesus offers? To let go of our victim status in order to become an overcomer? Do we want to heal? Click To Tweet

5 Steps to Accept God’s Healing 

1. Honestly evaluate your situation. Identify the excuses you’ve made and surrender them to God.

Make a list of the obstacles getting in the way of your healing. How many of them have you blamed on others? Ask yourself, “Do I want to heal?” Then re-evaluate. How many of those obstacles do you have a choice in after-all? How many aren’t actually obstacles to YOUR healing? Now write down a list of the real obstacles to your healing, and remember surrender is active, not passive. It’s not just exposing the issue, but deliberately and actively laying it down at His feet and walking away from it. It takes work. 

2. Commit to never again allow intimidation or fear to cause you to be a part of something that is displeasing to God.

Write down some things you know you’ve done that violate this standard.

Have you lied to your husband or someone else about your feelings in order to keep the peace? Have you kept silent on an issue you know was a bad decision that was displeasing to God? Have you participated in unhealthy communication out of aggravation? Have you allowed yourself to be mistreated out of fear? It all has to stop. You’ll never heal when you’re continuing to participate in this sin.

3. Ask Him to show you the way out, and when He does, take it!

Be obedient. Do the hard work.

Choose to always, always, always be honest, no matter what. Have the courage to speak up with the backing of Scripture when bad decisions are being made. Communicate openly and honestly, but in kindness and love with empathy. Make healthy, biblical boundaries and faithfully keep them. Find your identity and your peace in Christ so that no one can every steal your joy.

4. Trust God with your villains.

Just because you’ve decided not to be a victim anymore doesn’t mean it’s your job to defeat the bad guys. That’s God’s job. Just follow Him and let Him handle your enemies. 

Ultimately, people aren’t our enemies. But the sin that keeps them enslaved, and the demons that manipulate the truth in any way they can are. Simply put, we don’t have the power to do anything about them. But we’re the dearly loved daughters of the One who does. It’s not our job to avenge, or to punish sin. Our job is simply to live in obedience to the Righteous Judge and let Him do the rest.

5. Spend the rest of your life in pursuit of God.

Own it. Don’t wait for life to be perfect, dig into the Bible and learn everything you possibly can about what pleases God and then DO it! Surrender your life wholly to Him. Every. Single. Day. May He give us victory over our sin so we can boldly stand before Him and pray,  

Oh Lord, hear my plea for justice. Listen to my cry for help. Pay attention to my prayer, for it comes from honest lips. Declare me innocent, for You see those who do right. You have tested my thoughts and examined my heart in the night. You have scrutinized me and found nothing wrong. I am determined not to sin in what I say. I have followed your commands, which keep me from following cruel and evil people. My steps have stayed on Your path; I have not wavered from following You. I am praying to You because I know You will answer, oh God. Bend down to listen as I pray. Show me Your unfailing love in wonderful ways. By Your mighty power You rescue those who seek refuge from their enemies. Guard me as You would guard Your own eyes. Hide me in the shadow of Your wings.
 Protect me from wicked people who attack me, from murderous enemies who surround me. They are without pity. Listen to their boasting! They track me down and surround me, watching for the chance to throw me to the ground. They are hungry like lions, eager to tear me apart – like young lions hiding in ambush. Arise, oh Lord! Stand against them, and bring them to their knees! Rescue me from the wicked with Your sword! By the power of Your hand, oh Lord, destroy those who look to this world for their reward. But satisfy the hunger of Your treasured ones. May their children have plenty, leaving an inheritance for their descendants. Because I am righteous, I will see You. When I awake, I will see you face to face and be satisfied. 

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  1. Alice Mills

    When I first started inner healing ministry, I was sure that everyone would want to get better. The truth is that often it is only when people become desperate that they reach out. If only they realized that they didn’t have to fall so far in order to get better.

    • Esther Hosea

      I know Alice. I was not expecting it at all when I started this ministry either. I have been blown away and deeply saddened by the number of women who just seem to want to be a victim forever. Heartbreaking.

  2. LeeAnn

    So many women (and men) do stay stuck in the victim mentality. I’ve worked for many years with women who’ve gone through a variety of horrible situations – specifically women veterans. Even with intense counseling, many of them still can’t move past the event (whatever that event was) and stay stuck in the victim mentality. The one thing I see in common with the majority of them is that God is missing from the equation.

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